There are no easy or fast answers to any of these questions, but maybe in articulating them (a practice I have found helpful over a number of years), some resolution or settling, might take place. Today I walked the dog down to the mail box to collect today’s offering. As we walked past one of my gardens I could see evidence of green beginning to show above the soil. There is much to clean up there – twigs and branches that came down during winter need to be collected; old stems from last year’s growth need to be cut back; leaves which have in fact protected the plants in the soil below need to be removed to give light, air and moisture that those things might breathe and take all of that goodness in – and then grow.
As I type those words perhaps it is the same for me. I need to be spiritually cleaned up, the twigs and branches of regrets for what cannot be need to be picked up and handed over to God; old habits and maybe even old commitments need to be pruned or trimmed so that there is room for new commitments or relationships in my life; it could be time to open myself up to new vulnerabilities, to risk sharing my feelings with others so that spaces heretofore (over) protected might be reached.
Here might be a beginning… Thanks for listening.