When I was a young child I was a horrible eater (Mom, I'm so sorry!). My mother insisted I eat something of everything that was put before me. Included in those "somethings" were lima beans, Spanish rice (an inexpensive meal of rice, ground beef, chopped onions and green peppers and some tomato sauce) - I was allowed to pick out the cooked green peppers (I would eat them raw at the time, but not cooked...who knows what goes on in a child's mind). Although well fed I was a skinny child, which having met my tall and lanky 6'4" uncle was likely more the result of genetic inclination than under-nourishment. I can remember wighing 86 pounds and thinking I would never ever, go beyond that. I also have a memory of having been given a hand-me-down dress, in brown, that I thought made me look fat! How as a child, could I have ever looked fat!!
Well, time has changed all of this but it has taken time. When I came home from graduating at college I weighed in at a hefty 125 pounds - I had run out of money between finals and graduation and filled myself on cakes and whatever other sweet things that were available in and around campus. Still, at almost 5'9" I was thin.
Mom's insistence on my trying everything paid off - in benefits perhaps, too great. Today I will eat nearly anything and everything, and too often have - and do!! Recently I have joined a gym where I am working out 4-6 times a week. My balance definitely needs work. My muscles are getting stronger but as of yet (8 weeks in) I have not lost any weight. Earlier this week I had thought my clothes were feeling more comfortable, and that was encouraging. That was until Thursday when I wore a pair of capris that dis-couraged me - I felt like that proverbial sausage squeezed into a binding to hold me in shape. So today when I went to pull out some pants to wear I met truth head on: I rearranged my capri drawer into two piles. One pile is of those pants I hope to be able to wear before the summer is out ... but not right now. The other pile is one of those pants I can wear in comfort - and maybe even get to feel encouragement from as they do not bind.
I would not have believed it would ever come to this... Life is full of surprises!